Hey everybody!!

 

        Sorry long time no hear,  just alot of madness going on around me.  Worried about my mom, having an angiogram today, she spoke only quickly, but said something rather shocking and alarming, which I can find ZERO info. about online, nor getting answers from her, that she is missing 1 or more, (I thought she used the word arteries, but I won’t know more until after the test and she gets some answers to me), in and of itself,  a miracle she trusted me with this info, she likes to keep secrets, but it would have been nice to talk more then a few seconds about a medical ordeal like this. *sigh*, so naturally I’m worried. Doesn’t sound very pretty at all,  but I’m HOPING it’s something that isn’t as it sounds, HORRENDOUS, and turns out to be nothin major. Between that and my dad last week telling me, he feels the impending doom of a massive heart attack (He has 4 brothers, all of which have had heart attacks by, or around, his age, and open heart surgeries), I understand SOME fear, but he isn’t them, and is doing all he can, to take care of himself, yadda yadda, but when I try and offer support, I’m cut down.  He’s just acting like next it’s his turn and he could be at death’s door, so it’s real nice to have your parents like this, and worrying about your hubby’s health, and all, it’s rough. It was definite time to grab the pole for some quick therapy. Best anti-depressant there is.

      On top of it all, I must admit I have been secretly worrying about my own health to. Ever since my mom told me about something she saw on the news, how prior head trauma (concussions), can cause future problems like dementia and early Alzheimer’s, which is NOT something someone like me wanted to hear, I’ve been knocked out cold several times in accidents (non-pole related), along with a couple less serious blows, that were possibly concussions, I’ll never know, but that and also, recently hearing that from my Dr. alarmed me, having it confirmed by a news special as if these are sort of ‘new’ findings, and this is what’s inevitable for me, or so it FEELS like, when you have had my unlucky life in that dept, I mean it shakes you to the core, the mere thought of that happening to me, is REALLY stuck inside my brain.

   I’ve always been a bit of a hypochondriac, admittedly, but this is one time, noone is talking me down and sayin,  ’Nah, only in worse cases, like boxers and stuff, with like a ton of knock outs…you’ll be just fine’ or that means only like 1% of the people who have had this kind of history, it WON’T happen to you, chances are so so so so very slim on that, but can’t find that written anywhere or spoken either,  by anyone I talk to, how am I supposed to feel?  *Sigh*,  I always thought I was just insanely lucky to be here w/o any horrible after effects, that someone has definately been looking out for me, and now i gotto be freaked out about what MAY happen down the road because of it?

   I gotto be sooo careful, now more then ever, especially in a risky sport as this is, but thank God for it, cause it is the way to get my thoughts off of myself, and onto something much more happy and positive. Saftey is most important, especially to anyone who has been in my shoes, take heart in my story PLEASE! Any prayers you all could send to my family right now, I’d just REALLY appreciate it.

   I know we’ll survive as we always do, gotto try and be +++, and strong, I’ve often wondered where the human breaking point on strength truly is, surely there must be one, but i should have reached mine sooo long ago, it isn’t even funny,  yet here I stand, and sit, and pole, and type, and walk, and so, you truly can handle much more, then you ever imagined, take heart in that, those also who have been, or currently going through, rough times in your life.  Don’t turn to the bottle, or pills, or anything damaging to you as a person, turn to your pole, it’s better then anything else you will ever find, and if YOU… (anyone of you) out there, ever need someone to trust,  and talk to…I’m here for you, just as you all are for me:) .   OH,  the phone just rang…oops, had mom’s ring tone, but it’s only at&t, hey…I paid my bill, WTH,  do you all want? lol.

      ANYHOW on a brighter note.  Today, I finally got my spinning superman, 1 move I found to look so simple, but turn out to be the most tricky of all,  extremely surprisingly.  Now that we are off the topic of grimness,  and onto more positive things, let’s talk a bit about pole moves. Hmm…let’s see, I’m gonna ask myself questions and answer them, in case any newbies wanna compare their own answers, to my own, NOW & IN THE FUTURE.

     What was the biggest nemesis I had early on, when I first started at the pole? Definitely the superman, but it became one of the simplest advanced moves to be done repeatedly, w/o incident, FOR ME anyhow, and so looking back hard to admit that was like THE impossible move to me, way back when, when watching others do it.  Funny how that happens huh?

    What move gave me the hardest time learning? Cause of extreme ‘at first pain’,  which I hope doesn’t happen to any of you all, cause everyone is very different… the damn shoulder mount. lol.  I actually gave it up, it was soo painful on the side of my neck, it looked as if I was strangled or somethin for awhile there, and I am good with pain.  I let it go for awhile and I’m not one for giving up without success, but even when I had gotten up and then down, it was a painful process I hated repeating, and just couldn’t imagine it ever feeling ‘normal’,  and not giving me that sore collar bone and neck. Between you gals and me, I actually had tried cutting up maxi pads, thick ones to, and taping them directly to my shoulder for some comfort from the impact of the pole, but even that offered no relief.  I don’t wanna scare anyone who hasn’t gone there yet on this move, it was just my personal story for whatever reason, but I will encourage by saying 2,000%, I PROMISE you, if you do feel the discomfort of the S.M maneuver, it will be short lived, and you WILL be able to do it countless times (EVENTUALLY) and without a pinch, or a burn, nothing, nada, zero, zip, so hang in there, never give up, but IF your not really ready for any particular move yet, I urge you to slow down, and take your time, the pole will always be there. Be kind to your body:)  YOU ONLY GET 1!

    What is my favorite pole move?  Hmmmm…geez, I love so many of them, that’s a toughie, I have not thought about until this very second….I’d have to say it’s between the ‘Marley’, named by my good friend, miss boomloulou,  that one hurt a bit at first, but became harmless through time as well, I love several spins, but my other favorite TRICK would be the extended butterfly.  I think it’s really beautifully when it’s put to some slow music, and extended out so perfectly, it just can look really gorgeous.  I love how the knee hold looks as well, I just have a personal HATE for it.  I hope like the shoulder mount, that might change with time as well.

   Whelp, I think this post was long enough for today, I’ll be back shortly, and I love you all for reading, and for caring.  Your the best…I truly needed that vent:)  happy poling my friends!!!  XOXO

 

 

 

 

                  

    HELLO!  I’m Shelly, so happy you could come and visit my site!