NOW..back to personal life!

  I’ve been playin around outside again, like a fruit cake, on the poles at the park, and other lil amusements the park has to offer, when eyes are turned of course, whelp as often as possible, BUT damn I did get caught by a mom and her kids who just snuck up on us this last tme, before hubby could send me the warning call, talk about embarrassed…lol, I’ll share a couple vids of that outdoor excursion, in a couple days, in my next post.

  
    WHY oh why, can’t I ever find a super cool person, who also does crazy stuff like hangin on poles, and jumpin around like a child? AM I the only cool mom left on the planet? Is it true that at a certain moment in time, everyone is forced to grow up, but my alarm never went off on that 1? lol. idk!! I mean I can be serious when need be, but hey, life is soo stinkin short, and only goes faster as it goes along, so I don’t forsee myself ever changing, it’s all over before we know it, so if you are reading this, either guy or girl, makes no matter, start getting in touch with your ‘crazy side’ and lemme see you all at the park acting goofy, and crazy, cause I gotto say, I don’t see ANYONE, NOT ANYONE like me out there, and it sucks!  People sitting on park benches like stones, soo not me, ok maybe I don’t pole around kids, knowingly naturally that’s a normal thing even a crazy girl respects that, to me tht just would not be cool, I’m always watching out on that 1, making sure I’m alone, but why don’t these moms jump around with their kids? why don’t they fly down the slides, and jump across the bridges?  I sware kids as young as 2 to 10 at least, treat me as one of their own, I can be totally on their level, and along with my own children in the pack, I lead the way a lot of times, and that’s FUN to me. I often wonder if I could look inside people’s heads and get a glimpse of what they are thinking when I’m playin  like I’m a child as well, but screw ‘em, I figure I’ll never see them again, and I spent my entire life wondering and worrying about what other people thought of me, to the point of obsession, it’s nice to finally (mostly anyhow), not care anymore. (To a certain point, naturally:)

   so, how are you all doing?  How was your Valentine’s day? Well I hope. Went out to a really nice restaurant, which was nice. Hubby was not in the last thrilled about the dress I wore (picture of it below) lol. ok, now tell me this guys, WHY, do you men, LOVE your gals dressing up sexy when your dating, and then years after, and your married and all, the same things you used to love, you wanna burn? lol. I mean seriously, I bought this dress, granted it’s short, I’m not 50 yrs old, I’m still young, and I wouldn’t think badly if I saw a 50 yr old lookin sexy and feelin good, if she was confident and happy, good for her, why judge?  anyhow, it’s a dress I recently bought, and he just saw it and was like ‘I don’t like it’…bought it anyhow, cause it was red, and close to V-day and the price was beyond right, and I didn’t let him get me down. When your dating it’s like less is more, like VA-VA-VA-VOOM, like you wanna show the person off, brag to friends, GET attention, and once a man is married and settled, or so it seems anyhow, at least here, and with a lot of other people I know, cases, they wanna blend in, don’t want you drawing any attention from others, and instead the attitude goes from, YEAH WEAR THAT HOT LIL NUMBER’, to….’Where are the pants that go with that shirt? Are you really gonna wear that? I mean you look nice, but…’  Now is it any wonder how self esteem plummets a lot at this point? MEN PLEASE EXPLAIN THAT TO ME, FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME ABOUT THIS MATTER, HEHE!! (SERIOUSLY, it boggles my brain!)

  ANYHOW,  Family is very quiet (outside the immediate) over here, so nothin to report there, but that was very usual before my mother’s test, anyhow. Guess I’ll just assume the best, and go on…I hate when people throw you into the loop, then toss you out of it. I’ve gotten pretty used to that in my life, so I’ll just chalk it up to yet another instance.

  Had a fun 5 hr. haul on president’s day, with the kids, at chuckeecheese..yes you read right, 5 hrs, closer to 6 actually, but I met one of those moms, who ACTUALLY was a pleasure to talk to, and actually had a child who was in a similar age as my lil one, who sadly is in need of lil friends, but when she finds 1, she never sees them again, so it’s really hard on her, and very hard on me, so all things were right, she was a ‘normal’ person, not some snotty soccer mom, not one of those grandparents caring for the child, cause the daughter (real mom), is in the looney bin, and YES that was a recent scenario, no jokes there, and not a mom that was 19 yrs old, looking to party, every night of the week. Can’t be a mom and do that, sorry, so those never work out, and I’m soo not the soccer mom type, I mean I watch games, and I’m into everything my kids do, but I don’t have the lil clique’s that sip tea and talk like the desperate housewives, about outsiders, or people who might wear their sweater a bit too tight, or their skirt a tad too short, I don’t like people who judge others, and I’m not like that, so I just don’t fit in with those crowds.

      I like to be able to be me, use my sense of humor openly, and feel natural, not phoney around someone, and finally have them have a child or children, the right age for mine, and low and behold, that finally happened. Sadly, yet ironically, she lost her husband a couple years back to small heart attacks leading up to a massive stroke, that he ignored, won’t mention any names, but you’d THINK the story would maybe, open a certain someone in my own life’s eyes, especially when the person was the same age, and so many similar things going on, it was like takin a glimpse into my own future, if he doesn’t straighten up, and I KNOW you come on here honey, so if you read this, get your freakin A&& to the Dr. already, lol. We love and need you damn it!

   But back to the story. She has a daughter, 1 yr older then mine which is perfect, cause children my daughter’s own age, just don’t catch her interest, she likes them between 1 and even up to several years older. Being three believe it or not, I’ve witnessed her, grabbing hands of 8 yr olds, and pulling them to play, and HER remaining the leader, having them lag behind, and actually connect with her, which is impossibly hard to believe, but believe it, cause I witness it. oh yes, certainly is going to be a handful. 14 by 6 yrs old, oh yeah, I’m just really looking forward to that. I’m certain at this point, Boys are WAY easier! She can work a PC better then me, and changes wallpaper on hubby’s iphone, knows every function on the thing, plays games on it, even has downloaded new ones, BY HERSELF, if they seem interesting. Oh yeah, we’re in deep trouble!

   But back to the story, the mom and child were so nice, (granted I wish i could find all this, and a person who owns a pole as well, included in the mix, but I guess that’s pushin my luck, I can’t imagine finding that round here, but I f I do, I got a new best friend!).  Anyhow, with the two girls, the ironic part, was that they looked soo eerily similar it was ASTOUNDING!  Actually that’s how I first met the mom, hubby said look at that child, and I kept goin in for a closer look, cause I’m like 1/2 blind here, lol, and I was like ‘WOW’ and then bumped into the mom who was amazed as well.  Hair length, cut, and color, bone structure, shape and size of the eyes, almost the same color,  body type, even speech, and mannerisms, were spot on, it was like watching the parent trap or something. lol. The mom was a regular person, had a sense of humor, appreciated my own, which was soo nice, I didn’t have to not be myself, because quite frankly, I refuse to be, and we chatted for HOURS, and snapped photos of the girls together, as poor hubby sat collecting dust at a nearby table, on the busiest day chuckeecheese has ever seen, I sware.  I didn’t think we’d be there but an hour, when we walked in, you could hardly move, that was, until I met this woman and her daughter, and mine just connected and were off and running. Tokens, when mine ran short, in this wonderfully giving woman’s pocketbook, just were ENDLESS & overflowing. Finally someone with a giving sweet spirit, much like myself, someone down to earth, and real!  I was soo happy!

     I was even happier seeing the kids connect, finding out they don’t live in bang cock or somethin crazy like that lol, and maybe she can have a play date for once, and see the same child twice! I’ve felt so sorry for her, cause she tries so hard, gets really connected, then out of touch. This time I have a # and everything, and I can’t wait to get these two together again, it’s ADORABLE! I know this story is pretty boring, he he, non pole dance related at all, but just catchin up on life here, and rambling on about my ‘exciting week’, hehe.  I know half of you are snoring by now, I apologize for that.

     Anyway, for those who are reading this, and not yet chatting on the message board (FORUM) listed on the above ‘category’ menu, check it out, and join in!!! Friday’s I have the most chat time, and I’m spending a lot of time working on my vast collection of tutorials, it’s a lot of time, and work, so It’s been harder then usual for me, to chat a lot, but more time is headed my way, as things slow down, and so, expect that, so register and introduce yourself, start topics…girls and guys both are welcome, just no spam and porn, etc, if UKWIM, lol. Keep it nice, keep it friendly!

  Whelp I’ll be back with a couple outdoor ‘winter’ park vids shortly. Thanks for reading, and happy poling!

PS- Here is the dress above..i couldn’t get it to the right size down in here…I truly believe it’s the person inside of the garment, that makes it eigther trashy or ’sexy’.  To me, I’m NEVER the 1st, even when I don’t always feel the 2nd, lol. BUT DEFINATELY it’s the person and how they carry themselves, etc. etc. etc, not the garment itself! I’m classy:)

    HELLO!  I’m Shelly, so happy you could come and visit my site!