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OMG..soo sorry it’s been so long. I spent nearly 3 weeks sick, and aside from that, just been busy, busy, busy with tutorials and LIFE, and stuff, how are you all? I promise I will not neglect you for so long again! Nothing much funny goin on on my end to report. I still got outdoor vids from when it was super cold out, and my pathetic try at the sport Bartendez. God bless those guys strength, they should hit a vertical pole, I betya they would be AMAZING at it! Sorry behind on the vid postin w/ that, I will get it up this week, just very frustrating that I still have noo ability to upload from this lap top, and need to transfer everything, it’s REALLY getting on my nerves! If anyone reading this knows, if a lap top is on the 3rd floor and the router is on the basement level, and it’s not the best router in the world, would THAT have any influence on being able to upload from my lap top on my wireless connection, to you tube? Any input, PLZ advise, I was thinkin about getting a new router, but for $150 I’m just curious if it’s gonna change a thing or not, or do all lap top users have this issue, cause hubby can upload just fine from his downstairs, desktop. GRR…
ANYHOW. only semi-funny thing, was yesterday I went to this indoor amusement park place, with a friend and her kids, and I had this clingy top on, that was button down the front. whelp before she got there, we were there first, and I was standing there helpin my little one get a basketball in the hoop, and some man came over and gave me two giant teddy bears. ‘these are for you’. I was like OHH thank you, now stuff like that used to happen to me all the time, but after thirty HA, much less pronounced, but anyhow, I was like ahh so sweet, and I look down, and my puppies were hanging out, ok not literally, I did have a bra on, but the buttons came undone, he he, so cleavage city! Did that have anything to do with it, because an hour or so later, some guy gave me a roll of 1500 tickets, lol. Two sweet gestures in one outing…hmm breasts or no breasts, THAT is the question!
I’ll tell you I was in the gift shop, and it was sort of funny cause there weren’t many kids around at all, when that 1st happened to me, but this time, I was in the shop, and it was later, more kids around, and I felt air on my chest area, and looked down and great ceasers ghost. I had prizes and my pocketbook, both hands full, I scream over ‘HOLLY GET OVER HERE’. luckily for me, Holly is a ‘robust’ (heavier woman), I had her completely block me, as I cornered myself, or she cornered me rather, into the back of the store, as I tried to re-button w/o any little eyes viewing me. My bra was quite lovely, but still not appropriate dress wear for the occasion, lol. It was totally embarrassing. Whelp that shirt went straight into, the DO NOT WEAR ANY PLACE PEOPLE UNDER THE AGE OF 18 MIGHT BE, pile of clothing. lol.
ANYHOW, how are we all doing on our poles? Have you joined our forum yet? If not, and you are reading this, jump on aboard! Like I said I was sick for awhile, but I figure now, I’m good till at least 2010, if not more, so I’ll be back daily to the board starting tomorrow, Friday. Today I gotto finish up some tutorials, and edit a vid for you tube, but then some SWEET freedom! I’m soo glad I got 99% of those tutorials done, before this hotter weather hit, actually has been hitting as far as affecting the pole, humidity wise, soo soon the I-pole website will be fully operational, and a few more free tutorials will be added this weekend, so keep a look out for that!
I spent the most ever, a 6 day, grueling period of abstinence from the pole, from when I was too sick to stand..That was sheer torture my friends, normally, fever, nor hacking, can ever hold me back, but ahh what a doozy she was. Never wanna go there again. Just been having some fun spinny practice recently. If anyone wants to see my vids whom hasn’t, I’m exdiva69 on you tube:)
Whelp, I shall see you manana! Much luv, ShellyPS- as you can see this was meant, to be posted yesterday! TGIF! SEE YA TODAY!
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HAPPY ST. PATTY’S DAY GIRLS AND BOYS! (Posted this on the board just now, for chit chat purpose, but thought i’d throw it in as a quickie blog post…pole related news coming likely tomorrow, if not thursday in my next post, I PROMISE!)
I know not everyone is irish, i really am not, unless you talk to my mother, while she is drinkin a few glasses of wine, then suddenly, she says i have a ‘wee bit of irish in me’, hehe, but i’ve always ‘celebrated it’ not like easter, but cornbeef & cabbage, etc, dressing in green, taking photos, wearing buttons and stupid tiaras, you know ‘normal stuff’ tee hee…
No green beer this year, i’ve found it’s too appealing to the kids, lol. something about the color, so i’ve only tried that one once, and i didn’t care for the green teeth that became of it.
(no..not long term, lol).ANYHOW, you KNOW you have a boring life when……here it goes, you go to call target for an appt. for easter photos, which i meant to do all week but was sick with the flu and just didn’t get to it until this evening. the website said 9:00 so i said ‘ok’ and called around 7, so it rings, and rings, and rings, so i just let it continue, sort of forgetting, free minutes don’t start till after 9, and i’m using the cell phone, lol, but whatever on that one,
sooo….i call back again, let it ring, like another 8 minutes or so as i try to read some of my email quick, but noone was picking up, so i finally picked 0, to speak to someone, and someone gets on, and she looked at the schedule for the depts, and the photo center/ portrait studio, closed minutes before i called at 7pm. ok, now it’s 8:52, i got off the phone with her, from like 7:50 when i finally pushed the 0 button, until about 5 minutes ago, lol. almost an hour chit chatting with a total stranger.
I’m really good, i was able by her voice to guess her age, and she just turned 22, and i said 22…i guessed she didn’t have kids, and i was right, next thing i know i’m preaching to her about (in a comical way along the way), how fast that next decade goes by, never waste your life on the wrong man, on anything you aren’t happy with, and just got way way too detailed with a freakin stranger. (it happens often, lol)
She wasn’t brushin me off, she was laughin her head off actually. i have this way sometimes where, like one time i called paypal meaning to YELL AT THEM, haha, BUT I TRIED, I’M a wuss honestly, i do the best i can, but i’m usually too nice to a fault, but it was christmas time, and i had been double charged for gifts i bought hubby from buy.com, i called up to rant and let ‘em have it, and the lady was NICE, i couldn’t i just talked and somehow we got into her life history, my life history…we were on the phone, no kidding like 3 hrs, i’m suprised we didn’t exchange addresses, lol. (BTW they never did rectify that completely, i still ended up somehow partially in the hole, grrrr…, but i’ve had a zillion transactions, so a few i’ve had trouble with are little compared to the amount, but still, who has money to throw away??), but the way she explained things it made complete sense, and she was soo nice who could yell at her? then we had a ton in common, and i just welp, kept on goin as did she. she wanted to talk all night, i know why, so she didn’t have to deal with all the people that call up and scream in their faces (welp in the phone receivers anyhow), because of these lil ‘issues’, i’ve been angry b4, but usually have hubby do the job for me, welp for the cell phone bill’s sake, next time he shouldn’t tell me to grow a backbone cause it obviously did not work:) I can’t be mad at anyone no matter how i feel when they are nice and it honestly isn’t their fault.
brings me back to memories of certain jobs of mine. telemarketing….that never worked out because i was so sensitive if people hung up i wanted to cry, i was soo nervous, cause i know that IS bothering them, but i was really young and sensitive then, i don’t kow HOW people do that job for any length of time, and then i worked as a waitress..NEVER AGAIN, people get mad if something doesn’t taste good, yet YOU ARE NOT THE ONE WHO COOKED IT?
thus, my point is, how can i get angry with the paypal person who has nothing to do with it, or the lady who answers the phone at target, who isn’t the webmaster who made the fu-pa, lol, so instead of being mad, i get overly nice, sometimes chatty, and yadda yadda, i might not get any discount, but i know her name, and i do shop for my sockies there, sometimes undies to, so , lol.
She’s like ‘get home safe’, and i had to laugh on the inside, cause #1, i was (am) at home, and #2, i hadn’t drank anything. i still have a scratchy throat, and the two don’t mix, and hubby and i had a lil falling out earlier in the day, so maybe, just maybe i needed someone to talk to, and eventhough he didn’t come up, the target lady, she was there, lol… and that is how you know you have a dull life, or just a gift of gab that doesn’t wanna shut up. (or a mix, lol).
AHH, see now it’s 9:03 apparently i can call anyone for free, how is that fair? i didn’t know it until she had said it. noone i care to call, lol, i’d rather talk to strangers. Maybe someone on ebay will tick me off, not send me something (when i can buy something again, though i really shouldn’t get back in that game again), but i digress, maybe i should call up an old seller i’m ticked at, and really give it to them! (like what? a few laughs and my phone #)????
iam a TRUE wuss! I LOVE YOU ALL, I hope Irish or not, celebrate or not, you had a wonderful day, and ((hugs)) to you all.
much luv, shelly
PS- hope someone had a nice cold one, or a cosmo, or glass of wine or something for me…the lonely girl chatin with the ‘help’ lol.
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By exdiva69 on March 3, 2009 | No Comments
Perhaps just wishful thinking, hoping maybe lady luck decided to finally swing my way, maybe a little desperation, because I haven’t been ANYWHERE outside of this dang state, the same city, since my honeymoon! But Perhaps, a combination platter of these things, caused me to nearly, get scammed. Even when I was going to write this post in the morning, with a ’scam..question mark?’. I still wasn’t 100% sure if it was a scam, and I was just going to have to put something in, (fee wise), which i didn’t think earlier, i mean FREE, IS FREE, but I should know better, living in NY, born and raised, how could I not realize, nothing is ever free, and also, my luck just ain’t that good.
What am I referring to? Hubby says I got a phone call on his cell yesterday saying I had filled out a lil card, for a free vacation, at the local pizzeria, which I had done, you know, you fill it out, put it in the little box, and I have not done that since I was a child, I just lately have been thinking, my luck has been so bad, my entire life, that I’m just basically do for something great, ya know? I’m sure I’m not alone in that feeling, but trust me, if I had all day, and wrote out all the things that have made me so unlucky, your jaw would hit the floor, you’d throw your arms up and cry ‘YOU WIN’, for now, just trust me, in what I’m saying, lol.
Whelp, supposedly I won 4 days, and 3 nights, on a bahama cruise for 2, FREE vacation. (Did i mention FREE?). It said, NO timeshare, no catch, no fine print, yadda, yadda, so when I listened myself to the message, I sort of believed it..YEAH I FINALLY won something, and I finally get a trip, which I have been dying for, I was ready to pack, lol. I mean, at 1st I had slight reservations, but knowing that it wasn’t an online thing, so obviously phoney, and it was a REAL person on the phone, not a voicemail message, and I kept in mind, that I DID fill out a card, and my name COULD have been selected, and thinking, who would allow a scam to run in their place of work, right?, I always thought of those types of things as ‘real’, just unlikely for me to win, so I didn’t bother, but something urged me to do it, and I thought, YEAH it paid off. Whelp, lady luck was behind my shoulder, laughing a little bit, I’m sure.
Last night, I called the # the lady had told me to call. I mean by the sounds of it, hubby told me not to be excited, just because, he knows, we just ain’t lucky enough, and he had been scammed in a different way before, but then again not TOO differently, and wanted me to keep my head on my shoulders, which I had thought I had, until disappointment sets in, and your super duper bummed, which means, I never did keep my head on straight at all apparently. That is the true test, you don’t get majorlly disappointed, if you keep your distance on an idea, and don’t put any stock in it.
Like I said, I had called the #, and oh boy, there was a voice mail, (bad thought), but the guy sounded very genuine, so I thought, professional, and I thought, ok this could still be good. Whelp, about 10+ minutes in, there was no mention of the plane fare, or cruise part, being FREE, I heard about the hotel accommodations, but what about the rest? I started going..oh no,I mean that’s the most expensive part of the trip. I don’t live in Florida or the Bahamas, so it would be $500 maybe more nowadays, just to get to Florida, so that was certainly bad news, but I thought it was a free vacation, not a free motel room? Whelp, then he continued on, and made it seems again, sort of nice, with the boat ride, and dinners aboard, free meals if you choose the cruise option, and then it hit..cruise option $99 a person, for port taxes or something like that. Even this morning I thought, whelp $200 for a cruise including drinks and food, is a steal, BUT now we are adding a bunch of money we do not have right now, on top of this so called ‘free vacation’. They can make it sound decent regardless, IF you are one of the suckers like me, who actually stays on the phone for that long. I didn’t even realize at the time, as I did today, cause I guess I just wanted it to be real, so I could get that dang vacation I’ve been itching for for over 1/2 a decade, and that there were lil other things like hotel room taxes, I never even knew hotel rooms had taxes on them, that is the only good part of being a woman, not having to pick up the tab for dinners and trips, lol, whelp at least I guess not until your married, if you have an income, lol.
Part of the reason i created this site, aside from the, I’m happy to be good at something, and also, to help others, and feel good in the process, because I had the idea to do this a long time ago, just didn’t know if i’d be good enough, that was the negative side talking then, but another benefit, at least for the monetary part, many free things to have fun and do here at ipole, but..is to help with the struggle I see hubby going through on a regular basis ($ wise). It wouldn’t be alot, but something certainly would be a contribution to what i see on a daily basis, that causes alot of stress between him and himself, and even between the two of us. I’d feel good about it, if I contributed something, so it will be a nice perk, but I digress back to my story….These lil things (mentions of taxes and such, in the message), seemed to slip by me, and this morning I decided to do what I smartly always do, but not always a benefit to me..check it out online.
Whelp, if it wasn’t for online reading, who knows, how stupid I might have been, still thinking..maybe the trip is a good deal and idea, and get so into it, I’m packing my swimsuits, because I only had to do a tad of research and was then able to easily read about other people, completely and totally hooked, line, and sinkered, on this ’scam’, and pondering about the same free trip, some already having paid between $85-$200 up front, for quote un quote ‘fees’. At least I had not gone that far.
I can’t even make it to the USPDF Pole dancing championships in a couple weeks, like I had wanted to, right now, I just don’t have the $140, and that is just bummer enough, especially living not far from the event, like a slap in the face, so as you can see, no money to spend, and so I was glad I read all I had, but disappointed at the same time, because, I wasn’t chosen, I wasn’t special, I didn’t win, I’m still the same unlucky loser I was before the call. Isn’t that damn sad to think about yourself..to yourself? That’s how I felt though.
The people who did take the trip, said there were other hidden fees that came into play down the line, and that accommodations were substandard, and I checked out the hotel they said we’d be staying at (I’d say they are right), and booking your own trip would be better and cheaper even, and the boat is a lil ferry like thing, you are on for like 8 hrs, and not a true cruise at all. Then there was mentioned, that they were not really chosen, that EVERYONE gets a phone call, who enters for this so called ‘free trip’ and to prove it, one girl and her boyfriend entered, and both got separate calls, that they won. That just made my heart sink and go ‘ok, I didn’t lose any money, but faith in luck and happiness in the thought of a getaway, sure went out the window’.
You know, all my husband has said for me the past few years, is that you HAVE to play the lottery, you are bound to hit big, and he knows my whole life from birth and up, can’t tell you how many times, as I can be quite the little chatter box, lol, me? no….lol. But he’s never heard of someone falling into so many crazy rare situations, having so many negative twists of fate, soo much bad luck, he just said no way, it’s time for you, you have gotto play the lottery or something, your time has gotto be coming. I’ve never been a huge gambler, not with my own money anyhow, lol, I like getting tangible goods with my cash, but at the same time, I did at least (WAH) enjoy a nice trip to Vegas, but it was never on my dime, I haven’t been anywhere since being married, so I’d be the cheapest gambler in the world if I was paying myself, lol, I just like something to show for my money, but I do enjoy the thrill of a good slot machine pull, or keno game, or even quick draw, poker, stuff like that, I just could never get hooked on it and spend a fortune, that isn’t me. I know someone who sinks their child support that way, and I just don’t understand how something can be that addictive and not be ingested internally, but it’s obviously quite possible.
So anyhow, I get these lil things in my inbox from a ‘fortune teller..some sort of person like that’, just free inserts with a lil message, and stuff like my lucky days and numbers, once every few weeks or so, not even sure how I ended up getting subscribed to that, but they have been coming for a couple years now, I hardly ever read them, but when I do there has been a lot of luck, and money, in them, and whatever, I don’t put any stock in that, nice to hear, but never comes true, and this happened last night it said that before I found out the truth about the trip and I was like ‘hmmm’, but joke on me again. I like I said am not a huge gambler, so I don’t play lotto but once in a blue moon, for a buck, and I mean like once every couple years, lol and I haven’t bought a scratch off lottery ticket since like 1989, lol. a kid basically. That was cause they were sort of cool, and I had a friend, you know, one of those friends, who wins at EVERYTHING, EVERYTIME, the kind you are happy for, but at the same time, you wanna scratch their eyes out (just kidding Maddie, lol), but literally every scratch off game, I WON, every carnival game ever played, impossible ones even, lol, WON, she’d take home 150 prizes, and I’d be sitting there with nothing, and she’d hand me something and go ‘Here shelly’. that is her, I’m the opposite, so she should be playing the big lotto, that is for darn sure, but I’m just not this type of person, but hey if my luck was due for a change, OK THEN, I’ll try.
I picked out a bunch of numbers, ended up filling out 10 lotto games for mega millions, and hubby turned them in, $10 for one game (I didn’t realize that all the #’s apply to the same game). I thought that is crazy and soo not me, I could get a shirt for that, marked down from $60 to $10, lol, that is my thought processes, but he said DO IT, your due and so I did. It was actually Friday, February 13th, so I figured, an unlucky person, on an unlucky day, but alas, as you can see, pining away on a stupid bahama vacation, I did not become the next mega millionaire, lol.
I know the last 2 blog entries, have ZERO to do with pole dancing, AT ALL, but I wanted to vent and to show that there are a couple things in life that do hold true. Nothing in life, is truly ever free, everything has strings when it seems to good to be true, and on that note, if it is too good to be true, Whelp, keep your purse strings closed, that is, unless you’re the invinsible Maddy.
Whelp I have a pounding migraine since yesterday, so I gotto get my eyes off this screen, it’s making me nuts. Sorry I wasn’t on the board yesterday (or today, thus far), but my head is really pounding away, nothing seems to wanna work on it, so i promise to be back in action ASAP. Kids are also under the weather with a cold so…One of those CALGON TAKE ME AWAY moments in time.
I’ll be back with something pole dancing related in my next post, I promise with a video or something, and I appreciate it, if you didn’t laugh and call me sucker after reading this story..naive a bit? maybe, but I don’t wanna think of myself as a sucker. Now if I went for that direct buy crap, lol, then call me a sucker. A actually had to go and get hubby to run back in and get his $500 deposit back on that scam, now that day he was a big sucker. NEVER fall for that one, unless you have 20 million dollars to spend on a home you will start refurnishing from top to bottom, lol, but he can’t make fun of me once I bring up THAT sorted little tale.
Much love, hugs, and kisses, (until next time), shelly
PS- I might extend the deadline for the contest, because I haven’t really promoted it fully yet, so I’ll keep you posted on that front. I can’t believe we are in March already. Spring around the corner..YEAH!
PSS- Don’t think I don’t know how to space paragraphs, and align them properly, wordpress, is weird like that, i edit, and center, and add my spaces, and it sort of oddy ‘does it’s own thing’, sometimes I can’t get my blog posts to bold no matter how many times i select it. Anyone w/ experience on this type of site? GREAT $100 there, lol. xoxo
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By exdiva69 on February 28, 2009 | No Comments
(Sort of funny..sort of creepy:)
Ok, I wrote a whole blog post yesterday about my awful day’s luck, the day prior, and my AOL froze up, and whelp, let’s just say, it was all BYE-BYE! I didn’t have time to re-write then, but today i was going to, but my mind wandered elsewhere, and so, I’m sharing this story, and then I’ll share that one, shortly as well, which includes a short video.
Ok, I’m sitting here right, working some stuff for the web site, and I hear this lil tappin on the ceiling, like something small is up and moving around above me. I’ve never heard this sound before, and i’ve moved around ALOT in my day, but in all honesty, to me, it sounds like a super small animal up in the ceiling, and I’m not nuts and hearing things, & it isn’t outside, because it moves to different areas of the ceiling, and let’s just say i went into the bathroom and hid out for a minute.
I was gonna hit the pole, but NOT NOW, lol, cause there is a hole up near my pole…meaning, my pole is drilled up inside the ceiling, and inserted up several inches, because it’s a dropped ceiling, which means, i’m scared some THING is going to creep out of that hole, and maybe fall on my head or something, i’d instantly fall into shock.
Lemme just say, i’m a HUGE animal lover, nothing in a pet store, i wouldn’t take into my home, as long as it’s from a store, and domesticated. if a snake or tarantula (oh wait scratch that, that is one thing at the pet store i wouldn’t want in my house, i’m PETRIFIED OF SPIDERS…snakes are ok by me, like i said, NO wild ones though. Luckilly where i live, we don’t have too many snakes outdoors, nor many spiders, especially not huge ones.
My fear of spiders stems from childhood. My brother who was pretty ‘nuts’, lol, for lack of a better word, used to pull off daddy long legs’s ‘legs’ to watch them twitch around, and he’d use magnifying glasses to catch the suns rays and he’d burn up most any sort of bug, i used to get upset, because anything but spiders, bug wise, i’m ‘ok’ with, and i hated that he did that, and i don’t like spiders to die just cause i don’t like them, just don’t come near me, that’s all. anyhow, he used to also take the spiders and run after me with them, if he caught me, he would put it on top of my head, or simply throw them my way, indoors and out, he’d follow me and torture me *cry*, and i would cry like crazy, rubbing out my hair and head, freaking out, he knew the fear and so, he’d take ‘em from the backyard and even let them loose in my bedroom. let’s just say at times i had such a fear that if my dad killed a spider in my room, i still couldn’t sleep in there. i figured it was possible the rest of the spider’s family could be under the dresser or something, who knows? would the spider travel all alone? lol. this was my childhood thinking.Anyhow, there were nights, I’d sleep in the bathroom, yes, even inside of the tub with a pillow and blanket, or on the couch, depending on the area the spider was at, and like most spider haters, how big that it was. I just had this big fear and poor lil shelly, had that fear instigated by her own brother, but ok, I grew up, no harm no foul, well sort of kind of, I’m very forgiving, but like I said, spiders and certain animals belonging in a store or outside.. in my home, will freak me out! Luckily I’ve never had anything outside the bug family which is a rarity, in my home, BUT…..ladies might get a kick out of this story, if they can put themselves in my place.
(ok..tap tap again, I’m moving downstairs now)
Anyway.. a few months back, actually maybe only 2, time can slip me nowadays, when you are always busy, and it started to get really cold out, cause we had a nice Indian summer going on there, and I love that, cause I’m a summer girl, it lasted into october/early november even. Anyway, we live where there is a large field right behind a fence in back. It’s never presented any issues, except when our beloved bull mastiff passed away from leptosporosis, a rare disease, that quickly began shutting down his organs, nothing we could do, though we tried desperately, and it’s most commonly transmitted by animals like field mice poop, and he used to get occasional hot spots, which would be the spot of entry. just really really sad.
Whelp I had never seen a mouse outside of a pet shop. They are extremely cute, not the rats, but gerbils, and small mice, and hamsters, I would gladly keep one of those in a case, more so the hamster or gerbil but the mouse…yeah, I’d even go for that. My hamster cuddles bit me through the finger as a child, but I forgive the species, they are very cute lil animals. On cuddles behalf, he was staying in my brother’s room, who knows what kind of experiment he was running on him, that caused him to lash out. I don’t blame the animal.
Whelp, ok, so like I said, these animals in the pet store are fine, and I have never had an experience like this one night. I was laying on the bed with my sick at the time, lil princess. dad & the clan were out at the supermarket, yes i have one of those kind of hubbys, who doesn’t mind shopping & cooking, etc. I don’t eigther, especially the shopping, even for food, but sometimes he likes to take over, and that is ok. I guess i’m not the chef i always aspired to be, hehe, just kidding, he’s like the chef in this home, but i digress. Normal night, except that my lil one never naps, and it was around 6pm, and was fast asleep on my chest (definately the cold), and spongebob was on in the background, i couldn’t move to get the remote, she had me sort of pinned, so i watched it, believe it or not, thet show is actually tolerable, lol. no joking, but seriously, I suddenly noticed something zoom past my view on the floor beneath. i was HOPING i was seeing things. i was praying i was seeing things, but i found out, i was NOT seeing things. lol.
My heart was in my mouth, I couldn’t move, I wouldn’t move, I saw it come passed the baby gate, under the dresser, and I was frozen. Dare I get off the bed and then whatever it was, comes out, omg.. instant heart attack, so I just kept lying there, keeping my eyes peeled on the dresser, praying my hubby would pull up and rescue us, but no such luck. Then..there it went again a good 1/2 hr later, zooming across the rug, and exiting out the gate again. I was afraid there was maybe more, I was afraid it would come back, and creep over my foot or something, dare I get up from that bed, and God forbid she woke up, She would see my fear and forget about it, (super sensitive), so I wanted to keep her asleep at all costs, but inside I was totally SCREAMING, like a maniac, you just couldn’t hear me. I had to get to the phone, I placed her down gently, somehow keeping her asleep, eyes peeled, I ran like Flo-jo, into the other bedroom, grabbed the cordless, and called in a frantic panic to the hubby. Just the sound of my voice made him drop what he was doing, and run out of the store without buying the groceries, leaving them in the cart. I jetted back into the bedroom, to protect my baby. Too big to be a beetle I thought, too small to be a squirrel.
Whelp, about 10 more minutes passed, and I saw a tiny shadow once more. You know exactly what it reminded me of? Rewind to about 14 yrs ago. I had this pet rabbit right. I refused to let her sleep out in the cold, and I secretly kept her in an apt. I lived in myself. They are not very clean animals, so most of the time, all I did was clean up after her, (caged while i was out though), but she was so sweet. even begged, and did some pretty cool tricks. Anyhow my friend whom was in boces (sp?), at the time, had this animal care class and brought another bunny on over. I like any animal, I fell in love and wanted to keep it to, but I was only allowed to over the weekend. They seemed to be found of each other, we both didn’t know if it was a boy or a girl, I know the saying ‘BEEPING like rabbits’, but I didn’t see any of that going on.
Ok, fast forward a lil bit. One night with my ex, who’s likes don’t deserve mention in ANY story of mine, lol (but true), was over, and the TV was on, but lights were out, it was night time. Welp I saw something small that reminded me of this exactly, run passed my view and under this mini trampoline I had in front of the radiator.
I FREAKED, AND SCREAMED, and told my ex to grab something quick, a broom or something, caue something is in the room, and he was like what? Then I saw more then 1, I would have fainted if I were not sitting down, and OMG, what a shocker, when he turned on the light, looked under that trampoline, and found a litter of rabbits under there. 6 to be exact. They were so tiny, they looked exactly like mice. Didn’t take very long to figure out, what had gone down, during cocoa’s lil visit, lol. I soo loved those bunnies…too adorable for words, but i digress, Only 1 little problem in this case, I do not have any rabbits anymore! It was a reminder YES, a possible explanation now? NO!So back to the not long ago past. Hubby finally busts in, at this time the little one awakes, and I don’t want her to know, or anyone else, so I tried to explain it to hubby in code, but my he just wasn’t getting it, and shouted out ‘what did you see a mouse or something’, I was like SHUT UP, and at the same time..WHAT? and he said, since we live by the field, that time of year, it is possible for a mouse to wander in the door, which sometimes, he accidentally leaves cracked, but I’ve been here 4+ years, I’ve never seen or heard of such a thing, well not until that night when tom and Jerry came on, but seriously, zero experience, but hubby was right. He said he had seen one like 6 yrs back, but I hadn’t lived with him at that point. I certainly do not recall hearing that story, or I’d likely not have moved in at all, but I sent him out to buy mouse traps, now like I said, I’m total ‘peace’ when it comes to animals, and asked him to buy something that would trap and not kill them, so he could release them elsewhere. I got a hearty laugh out of him, and an IMPOSSIBLE, as a reply. I then said ‘please at least get something that catches it and does it quickly , so as painlessly as possible, and ‘inside of something’ so you don’t have to see it. Whelp he ran off and came back, with two of what I wanted, and some other kinds, I know zero about. they were sticky..well now I know more, lol.
He said the big ones that do what I wanted were $8 a piece and so he only bought two and some cheaper sticky ones. Right then, I was certainly not impressed by him being frugal, but I was like put the most bait on those two. WELP, I knew I’d never sleep that night, until this mystery was solved. You should have seen me, jumping from chair to chair, sofa to sofa. Every time I thought I saw something, I’d cry AHH, and realize it was a shadow or object being moved, or something really lame, but I was in that ‘mode’, you ladies know that mode, if you’ve ever been in it.
So time went on, and I was praying something would happen, and there it went again, so quickly, it was impossible to make it out, but he confirmed, definitely a field mouse. In that instant I was thinking how cute it is, how much cuter it likely would be if it slowed down, but how much I did not want it in my house. It was nothing personal, but if a mouse I bought for a pet got loose in the house, totally different ball of wax! A few hours pass by, the kids far less affected then myself. Tried to play cool but like I said, anything sudden or caught my eye, a lil eek would come out of my pipes, I couldn’t stop it, it was almost involuntary.
At any rate, finally he cries ‘come here, I got it’ I said I don’t want to see it, but then I thought I never saw this before, maybe a quick peek since he said he got stuck on the sticky pad and was still very much alive, so I was like ok, I’ll peek, and then go outside and you can somehow get him off, and let him go..not me, but hubby naturally. Whelp if I had know that was an impossibility, I wouldn’t have looked. the lil mouse, was like one you’d see in the pet store, just wild, but he seems to think there isn’t really any difference between the two but come on, they must be domesticated, and bred a certain way to be sold to the public ..right? I don’t know, but I’d think there are differences and obviously the ones like this would carry disease, I mean we can’t prove it was a mouse but the dog situation and all, it was possibly one. Anyway, there he was, so cute in all honesty and much smaller in person then he appeared storming through the rooms and frightening me. I guess ‘that happens’. When I learned he could not be freed and this was not the better way to go, I welled up for the little fellow and got a lil ticked that he bought something like that, that doesn’t just do it fast and not make him suffer, I don’t know but who invented that product? it’s terrible, in my own opinion.
It really was sad, it made me unhappy the way it ended, but I did feel safe in the house again, on the other side of things naturally. He said it happens very rarely, it’s a freak event, and no one leaves the door open even a hair any longer. No problem here, I know that I never do. We do have 2 dogs, and they are in and out a lot, but I’d like to think, I’d see something like that slip by me, him maybe not, but who knows? I did stuff a towel under my bedroom door just to be completely safe, oh and did I mention the kids were in with me lol. Hubby had to work, and by the next day the fear started to subside. Life started to return to normalcy again.
One thing he assured me, was that up on the top floor, where my pole is, and where I venture into alone, to be sure I would not want to see a damn thing up here, he said it gets colder as you go up in levels, and so a field mouse would not go up there, and he is right because the hallway leading up to here is colder then the actual attic level’, so why would anything come out of the cold, and go someplace colder, and that made sense, I sort of pushed that fear away, and also he said that lil mouse, could never get up the stairs anyhow, there are about 15 of them, they are steep, and large and again, I thought he’s right, this is where I’m safest, lol. no worries while poling.
Then again I was assured remember ‘a freak thing’…won’t happen again, doesn’t happen every year, heck didn’t happen for 6, so, ok good odds right? WELL, we’ll see, lol.
I vacuum a lot, no trace of anything mouse related, if you know what I mean, so like I said, fear subsided. One morning, I’m way upstairs, editing a you tube video, and I notice something stationary about 8 inches away on the rug. It looked just like a slipper sock in a ball which I had plenty of. Now all you gals who can get skittish like me, this is an unheard of nightmare to you all, and to those who live out in states and countries where this is commonplace even normal, might be bored and un phased at all, by my story, but you gotto understand, this is something I had certainly never seen, closest was baby rabbits but those were totally different, it was my rabbit, and after the shock, I was so happy, can’t believe you can’t tell a rabbit is pregnant, but…I was young, wasn’t home every second of the day, she hid them well for sure. those were domesticated and cute, this ..well anything unnatural becomes scary.
At any rate, this ’sock’ or so I thought was sitting there, there was no movement, so I just reached over, grabbed it, I was going to throw it in the laundry, and OMG. I felt fur and instinctively just tossed it and jumped up on the bed. that time I nearly fainted, I was alone and now standing, it was ‘ok to look panicked now’, lol. Ok bad enough one time occurrence, but was this going to become part of life, if so, I’m living out on a house boat or something. I’d rather brave the 7 seas, but now, this time, I had GRABBED that thing. Do you know how many times I had to wash that hand?
I was compulsive like Monk with the hand washing, I was just in shock, because last I saw a mouse it was not stopping, it was running, no one could grab it, this was like a stationary object, though I quickly learned when I tossed it ‘the sock wasn’t dead’ lol. Well I can sort of kind of laugh about it now, as long as I’m out of any area near fields, but the same time next year, because I can’t go through this again.
Whelp long story short (yeah right), lol. the thing climbed into my slipper. (eww yes, cornered? YES), but sort of sad. I just wanted him to take the slipper, and release this creature out, ok drive the creature out of the area, and let him go in a field, (he could and did keep the slipper, lol), but of course that was going to happen. Sadly hubby announced, that the mouse was dying, he must have eaten some poison in the trap, and had gotten away somehow, to die later on. How did he make it up the stairs, and why in the cold stairway, and when mind you, but how did he do it, there was no poison up here to eat so he must have been dying already from downstairs.
My husband said they are more afraid of us then we are of them. that seemed impossible in my case at the time, but if true, why was he almost by a moving human’s side. Was he saying HELP ME. I felt guilty for tossing him, but again, I thought it was a sock, but it wasn’t far or hard or anything. I know I just sent shivers down any girls’ spine who got through reading this long, drawn out story, lol. Men they aren’t afraid of anything. a 20 ft. python could walk through the kitchen, and they’d go and lasso it outside, but try to get them into a chair, to have blood drawn, and WAHHH WAHHH, lol, so ironic isn’t it?Whelp, I don’t know the true point of this story, I do hope if I see any weird critter in my home again, it will be store bought, for certain, but I thought someone might get a chuckle out of it, and the only thing that made me write this, was the odd ‘noise’ up in the ceiling. I came back up about 10 minutes ago, I no longer hear it. what could it possibly be? Whelp it wasted my practice time for the morning *sigh*.
Whelp reading that was 10 minutes of your life, you can never get back, lol, damn the economy, or I’d be selling the house, trust me, I don’t want to live next to a field anymore, yet at the same time, I always dreampt of living on a farm full of animals, imagine the critters, that get into those houses? OMG. Re-thinking that desire.
Just never throw a spider at me, or let a mouse loose in my house that looks like a cozy sock, and you and I, whomever is reading this, could definitely be great friends, lol.
And that is my personal ’scarey story’ of the week. Tune in next time:) xoxo shelly
PS- remember entries for the online competition here are I-pole is OPEN FOR ENTRIES, so go to the contest page and read more, and enter there! Much luv to all my friends, fans, and just everyone! *kisses*
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By exdiva69 on February 18, 2009 | 2 Comments
Hey everyone,FIRSTLY- I’ll mention, the I-pole online dancing competition, starts in just a few days time, and details about the contest, is of course, listed on the contest page of this website, and will be announced on you tube, likely tomorrow. Check the contest page, or message board for additional details, but I hope it’s a success, so we can have many more, great pole competitions to follow, with tons of prizes and cash giveaways. I just LOVE hosting events, I love being in them to, but this one, is off limits for me, but open to you all, so have FUN and entries are being accepted starting on 2/12, and will end on 3/21…plenty of time to get those entries in!!
NOW..back to personal life!
I’ve been playin around outside again, like a fruit cake, on the poles at the park, and other lil amusements the park has to offer, when eyes are turned of course, whelp as often as possible, BUT damn I did get caught by a mom and her kids who just snuck up on us this last tme, before hubby could send me the warning call, talk about embarrassed…lol, I’ll share a couple vids of that outdoor excursion, in a couple days, in my next post.
WHY oh why, can’t I ever find a super cool person, who also does crazy stuff like hangin on poles, and jumpin around like a child? AM I the only cool mom left on the planet? Is it true that at a certain moment in time, everyone is forced to grow up, but my alarm never went off on that 1? lol. idk!! I mean I can be serious when need be, but hey, life is soo stinkin short, and only goes faster as it goes along, so I don’t forsee myself ever changing, it’s all over before we know it, so if you are reading this, either guy or girl, makes no matter, start getting in touch with your ‘crazy side’ and lemme see you all at the park acting goofy, and crazy, cause I gotto say, I don’t see ANYONE, NOT ANYONE like me out there, and it sucks! People sitting on park benches like stones, soo not me, ok maybe I don’t pole around kids, knowingly naturally that’s a normal thing even a crazy girl respects that, to me tht just would not be cool, I’m always watching out on that 1, making sure I’m alone, but why don’t these moms jump around with their kids? why don’t they fly down the slides, and jump across the bridges? I sware kids as young as 2 to 10 at least, treat me as one of their own, I can be totally on their level, and along with my own children in the pack, I lead the way a lot of times, and that’s FUN to me. I often wonder if I could look inside people’s heads and get a glimpse of what they are thinking when I’m playin like I’m a child as well, but screw ‘em, I figure I’ll never see them again, and I spent my entire life wondering and worrying about what other people thought of me, to the point of obsession, it’s nice to finally (mostly anyhow), not care anymore. (To a certain point, naturally:)so, how are you all doing? How was your Valentine’s day? Well I hope. Went out to a really nice restaurant, which was nice. Hubby was not in the last thrilled about the dress I wore (picture of it below) lol. ok, now tell me this guys, WHY, do you men, LOVE your gals dressing up sexy when your dating, and then years after, and your married and all, the same things you used to love, you wanna burn? lol. I mean seriously, I bought this dress, granted it’s short, I’m not 50 yrs old, I’m still young, and I wouldn’t think badly if I saw a 50 yr old lookin sexy and feelin good, if she was confident and happy, good for her, why judge? anyhow, it’s a dress I recently bought, and he just saw it and was like ‘I don’t like it’…bought it anyhow, cause it was red, and close to V-day and the price was beyond right, and I didn’t let him get me down. When your dating it’s like less is more, like VA-VA-VA-VOOM, like you wanna show the person off, brag to friends, GET attention, and once a man is married and settled, or so it seems anyhow, at least here, and with a lot of other people I know, cases, they wanna blend in, don’t want you drawing any attention from others, and instead the attitude goes from, YEAH WEAR THAT HOT LIL NUMBER’, to….’Where are the pants that go with that shirt? Are you really gonna wear that? I mean you look nice, but…’ Now is it any wonder how self esteem plummets a lot at this point? MEN PLEASE EXPLAIN THAT TO ME, FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME ABOUT THIS MATTER, HEHE!! (SERIOUSLY, it boggles my brain!)
ANYHOW, Family is very quiet (outside the immediate) over here, so nothin to report there, but that was very usual before my mother’s test, anyhow. Guess I’ll just assume the best, and go on…I hate when people throw you into the loop, then toss you out of it. I’ve gotten pretty used to that in my life, so I’ll just chalk it up to yet another instance.
Had a fun 5 hr. haul on president’s day, with the kids, at chuckeecheese..yes you read right, 5 hrs, closer to 6 actually, but I met one of those moms, who ACTUALLY was a pleasure to talk to, and actually had a child who was in a similar age as my lil one, who sadly is in need of lil friends, but when she finds 1, she never sees them again, so it’s really hard on her, and very hard on me, so all things were right, she was a ‘normal’ person, not some snotty soccer mom, not one of those grandparents caring for the child, cause the daughter (real mom), is in the looney bin, and YES that was a recent scenario, no jokes there, and not a mom that was 19 yrs old, looking to party, every night of the week. Can’t be a mom and do that, sorry, so those never work out, and I’m soo not the soccer mom type, I mean I watch games, and I’m into everything my kids do, but I don’t have the lil clique’s that sip tea and talk like the desperate housewives, about outsiders, or people who might wear their sweater a bit too tight, or their skirt a tad too short, I don’t like people who judge others, and I’m not like that, so I just don’t fit in with those crowds.
I like to be able to be me, use my sense of humor openly, and feel natural, not phoney around someone, and finally have them have a child or children, the right age for mine, and low and behold, that finally happened. Sadly, yet ironically, she lost her husband a couple years back to small heart attacks leading up to a massive stroke, that he ignored, won’t mention any names, but you’d THINK the story would maybe, open a certain someone in my own life’s eyes, especially when the person was the same age, and so many similar things going on, it was like takin a glimpse into my own future, if he doesn’t straighten up, and I KNOW you come on here honey, so if you read this, get your freakin A&& to the Dr. already, lol. We love and need you damn it!
But back to the story. She has a daughter, 1 yr older then mine which is perfect, cause children my daughter’s own age, just don’t catch her interest, she likes them between 1 and even up to several years older. Being three believe it or not, I’ve witnessed her, grabbing hands of 8 yr olds, and pulling them to play, and HER remaining the leader, having them lag behind, and actually connect with her, which is impossibly hard to believe, but believe it, cause I witness it. oh yes, certainly is going to be a handful. 14 by 6 yrs old, oh yeah, I’m just really looking forward to that. I’m certain at this point, Boys are WAY easier! She can work a PC better then me, and changes wallpaper on hubby’s iphone, knows every function on the thing, plays games on it, even has downloaded new ones, BY HERSELF, if they seem interesting. Oh yeah, we’re in deep trouble!
But back to the story, the mom and child were so nice, (granted I wish i could find all this, and a person who owns a pole as well, included in the mix, but I guess that’s pushin my luck, I can’t imagine finding that round here, but I f I do, I got a new best friend!). Anyhow, with the two girls, the ironic part, was that they looked soo eerily similar it was ASTOUNDING! Actually that’s how I first met the mom, hubby said look at that child, and I kept goin in for a closer look, cause I’m like 1/2 blind here, lol, and I was like ‘WOW’ and then bumped into the mom who was amazed as well. Hair length, cut, and color, bone structure, shape and size of the eyes, almost the same color, body type, even speech, and mannerisms, were spot on, it was like watching the parent trap or something. lol. The mom was a regular person, had a sense of humor, appreciated my own, which was soo nice, I didn’t have to not be myself, because quite frankly, I refuse to be, and we chatted for HOURS, and snapped photos of the girls together, as poor hubby sat collecting dust at a nearby table, on the busiest day chuckeecheese has ever seen, I sware. I didn’t think we’d be there but an hour, when we walked in, you could hardly move, that was, until I met this woman and her daughter, and mine just connected and were off and running. Tokens, when mine ran short, in this wonderfully giving woman’s pocketbook, just were ENDLESS & overflowing. Finally someone with a giving sweet spirit, much like myself, someone down to earth, and real! I was soo happy!
I was even happier seeing the kids connect, finding out they don’t live in bang cock or somethin crazy like that lol, and maybe she can have a play date for once, and see the same child twice! I’ve felt so sorry for her, cause she tries so hard, gets really connected, then out of touch. This time I have a # and everything, and I can’t wait to get these two together again, it’s ADORABLE! I know this story is pretty boring, he he, non pole dance related at all, but just catchin up on life here, and rambling on about my ‘exciting week’, hehe. I know half of you are snoring by now, I apologize for that.
Anyway, for those who are reading this, and not yet chatting on the message board (FORUM) listed on the above ‘category’ menu, check it out, and join in!!! Friday’s I have the most chat time, and I’m spending a lot of time working on my vast collection of tutorials, it’s a lot of time, and work, so It’s been harder then usual for me, to chat a lot, but more time is headed my way, as things slow down, and so, expect that, so register and introduce yourself, start topics…girls and guys both are welcome, just no spam and porn, etc, if UKWIM, lol. Keep it nice, keep it friendly!
Whelp I’ll be back with a couple outdoor ‘winter’ park vids shortly. Thanks for reading, and happy poling!
PS- Here is the dress above..i couldn’t get it to the right size down in here…I truly believe it’s the person inside of the garment, that makes it eigther trashy or ’sexy’. To me, I’m NEVER the 1st, even when I don’t always feel the 2nd, lol. BUT DEFINATELY it’s the person and how they carry themselves, etc. etc. etc, not the garment itself! I’m classy:)
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By exdiva69 on February 10, 2009 | No Comments
Today I write this blog post, with a heavy heart. Nothing pole fitness related today, just a tribute to a lil girl who lost her life, so disgustingly, so inconceivable, Caylee marie Anthony. An angel on earth, now an angel in heaven. I don’t watch much news, the stories, get me so deep, as I’m a very sensitive person, and I get too swept up in emotions, cause some of the things going on, everyday, all around me, are so atrocious I believe for my own sanity sake, I’m often better off left in the dark, cause I’m helpless anyhow, and I’ve already had my share of pain in this world, and my own losses’, so I don’t try to ever add to it, however this little girl, somehow crossed my path, news wise, I got into her story, she touched my heart from the very get go, and I couldn’t stop myself from following this story. I spend my mornings, editing tons of tutorials, getting things ready for my site, and also never missing a beat of news over on you tube, about this precious child.
Over 6 months of daily news, and 6 months of pain, twists and turns, 6 months of anger, and I’m not here to spread my outrage at the child’s mom, my own opinion, though shared by many, many, others, is just that, my personal opinion. I’m not here to bash Casey Anthony right now, ESPECIALLY when today is all about Caylee, and her memorial, HER closure, and she deserves it to be ALL about her, no anger, no bitterness, and even hatred, I’m pushing it all aside today, and with a heavy heart, I’m weeping for this child.NO child deserves to die. NO child deserves to hurt. To die in this way, is unspeakable, but knowing she’s up in heaven with God, and my own angels, I , and I hope her family to, take heart in the fact that she’s not in any pain, she’s happy, and healthy, and thriving. We might not know much about her life here on earth, certainly wasn’t born to the right person, but noone gets that choice, why God allows these things, is one question, I’ll have to ask him myself when I reach the gates one day, but knowing I’ll reunite with my lost loved ones, gives me strength to make it through everyday, so I hope the others who also care for this child, can look at it and find some acceptance and peace in that knowledge. In SOME way, it almost feels like she was one of my own, I’ve been so emerged in the case, I wish she HAD been mine, (thousands do), because she would have had a great life, but this was not meant to be. WHY? another question only God can answer. We don’t get to choose our parents…she commited no sins!
I truly believe every life has a purpose, no matter how short. No child is ever born in vain, there is always a reason. they touch people’s hearts, they change lives, in ways, you sometimes can’t always see, until hindsight kicks in. Time makes everything much clearer. They help you build strength and courage you never knew existed, and your time with them, no matter how short, is irreplaceable. The memories couldn’t be sold by me, for all of the money in the world. The feeling of loss, the hurt, does that ever go away? NO, but if you believe in the afterlife, and I surely do, I know I’ll reunite one day, and I no longer fear death like I used to, because I know this to be true, and it will be the sweetest day I’ve ever known. Do I have questions for God? yes many. BUT if I could go back and change the choices I made in loving , and caring, and fighting, hoping, yet failing, somehow someway, I still can’t see I would have done anything different, but maybe grieved and found some acceptance sooner, rather then the denial that ate at me for soo very long. That just KILLS YOU!
BUT this is about Caylee, sorry to get off track here, but she has helped ME so much in my own grieving process. Her life also helped a stranger, she never even got to know, (myself), and I’m so thankful to her for that. I’m one who can bury things until I burst and it’s not good, this case, has struck soo many cords, and I embrace Caylee and her precious life, because it has helped me, find a bit of closure in my own situations. I’m sure I’m one of MANY strangers, who never met her, also following the stories, whom have stories of their own, and feel the exact same way. My heart goes out to anyone who’s been through the imaginable, losing a child, and to lose one to murder, just UNFATHOMABLE.
I believe in justice..eventual justice for everyone whom does wrong in this world. Sometimes it MIGHT not happen in this life, but in the next, but what goes around will come around, one way or another, and Caylee will get that justice, and thankfully for her, I DO believe she won’t have to wait very long for it. IT will happen for her. If you ever want to watch this story, Nancy grace airs every night on CNN, but I prefer watching it on the channel (you tube) of torbenmiller2. A truly wonderful human being, with such a kind soul, that he uses a large chunk of his time, to serve the public (us) and provide us, with every bit of news, as it comes in, on this ever-evolving case, and to him I thank you. Click on his name if you are interested in viewing his channel, and learning more about Caylee Marie. Also The Nancy Grace link, if you would like more info, listed on their site about the case, including blogs, and show times, etc.
Today I light candles for you sweet angel. You’ll never be forgotten, and always will be loved, by people you never met, myself included, who feel as though they knew you well. REST IN PEACE!
Sorry, it really helps my soul to release my pain over this case, and over my own sorrows and tragedies. No matter what you’ve been through in life, my biggest advice is, never submerge it, deal with it, take it on, no matter how incredibly painful, cry as much as you need, talk to someone, you can’t bottle things up inside, and not just when you lose a child, but even losing a spouse, or a friend, or even losing a job now a days, is incredibly painful and hard, WHATEVER it is, don’t be afraid to cry, to think, to grieve, and to remember. You heal so much quicker, when you don’t hide from your emotions. You can keep running away from them for so long, but in the end, that eventually will cause you to burst, and it won’t be pretty, so, just CRY, let it all out, and if ANYONE ever needs a shoulder, I’ve been through most anything, but even things I don’t have experience with, I’m always an empathetic, PRIVATE ear, and a shoulder, to whomever may need one.
Goodbye sweet Caylee Marie Anthony! Your life will never be forgotten, and your spirit lives on, and always will!! 8/9/05- 6/16/08 (that’s the date they believe & we believe (from the board), she was taken into heaven’s arms. God bless you! Justice will prevail!
Now with a heavy heart, I continue now to edit my videos, and get the tutorials going, making them as GOOD as possible, and as thorough, and I’m really workin hard, thankfully I enjoy it:) (Not saying when I’m fully done, I won’t be relieved, lol, but will always be adding along the way), but I’ve gotten pretty far, so I must keep it up. I’ll have more time to chit chat and post more youtube vids, when things are mostly done. HOPEFULLY soon!
I’ll be back on a happier note another day, I just wanted to share, what was on my mind today, and remember the little girl with the most beautiful smile, aside from my own children, (but any mom would say that naturally), that I’ve ever seen. YOUR FREE NOW SWEETHEART! Rest in peace.
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By exdiva69 on February 7, 2009 | No Comments
Hiya Ladies. Someone tell me if they ‘buy’ this. Mom still knows nothing about the angiogram results? Hmmmm….I don’t know but a lil fishy to me, how you can have an artery missing, and they wouldn’t have anyone call you to update you on that situation, and what was found or not found during the test? She says no news must mean good news, and I told her to please call her Dr, and she says to me, she’s too busy during their office hours to call them, doing her new job after being retired for some time, but can’t you take a minute? Don’t you get a lunch break? How hard is a phone call?. But they would have called her, she insists, which of course one would think so, but why go through life wondering, if this is in fact what’s truly goin on, wouldn’t you wanna know for certain, from your Dr. himself? Maybe it’s just me, but I surely would.
Then she strangely tells me I should get more minutes on my cell phone, we actually recently cut back on our phone plan, because the minutes were going unused, and now I’m going over my minutes, because she’s suddenly felt the need to be ‘chatty’ lately, not about her health, just about life and everything else, what’s odd? Ummm we normally talk 1 x a week if that, and it’s quick, cause it’s painful sort of kid of, lol. We never had that mother daughter ‘talk’ relationship, not AT ALL, so very bizarre to me, how she can suddenly start callin a lot, and also asking me to get my minutes bumped up so we can talk longer. I have a house phone, but by the time she calls at night that is off, I got the cell under the pillow.
Now…what do you think? Also again I must say we’ve never had a close relationship in which we confided in one another, so it is possible for her to be leavin me out of the loop, maybe even sorry she told me about the test, and she knows something IS bad, and wrong with her, and she is now worried, and feeling talkative? I know people can get that way… I don’t know, how does 1 prove that, if they don’t admit to it?
Ok enough brain burn for one morning, lol. how’s everybody doin? Almost valentine’s day, I have a love/hate relationship with this holiday, don’t ask me why, or we could be here all day, all month, but at least I get to dress up, which I love to do, for youtube and beyond, he he, always something i enjoy. Still on my nocturnal kick w/ pole dancing. I wanna start gettin up super early again, I feel like I’m missing out on something, the 5 am workouts, ahhh, who else but me could miss that right? Pole dancing must be awesome, if you wanna get up that early to study! I don’t recall wanting to ever get up and ‘practice my algebra’ ..EWWW…perish the thought. Boy how glad am I that THAT segment, of my life is over, and i was right..when have i ever used that crap? LOL.
Anyway, on a pole move note…a new nemesis has been mentally formed, taking over for many nemesis’ before it. dah, da, da, dahhh….the crescent moon. Something I’ve seen, always liked, but gave up on likedy split early on, cause the back just didn’t seem to wanna go there. I can feel I have more flexibility since last I tried, if you even wanna try it an attempt, I gave up sayin ‘impossible’ from the start cause my back just didn’t cooperate, but I have renewed hope that somehow, I can nail this move, even if I have to keep up with back stretches until my eye balls roll out of my head, I will get this sucker, lol. I have to, so I can move on to a new nemesis. getting stuck for good, well, that just isn’t an option. Whelp time to get on with the day, will be back soon, hopefully with somethin a bit more on the interesting side.
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By exdiva69 on February 2, 2009 | No Comments
Whelp, no word on mom yet, she’s still waiting, Hopefully all is well (knock on wood). thanks for the thought and prayers, I’ll keep you posted.
ANYHOW, the other day when it was soooo cold, just going to and from the car was a struggle, all you could think about is HEAT, HEAT, HEAT, and on this freezing cold day 20 degrees, and about 7 wind chill factor, with some snow still on the ground, and ice slicks all over the place, a crazy person, was spotted at a local park ‘attempting to pole dance’ to no avail. Try try try as she might, she just couldn’t do a thing, but had some fun trying, for the sake of your amusement. NEWS OF THE WEEK…..crazy mama at local park…was she under the influence? sources say NO, did she just escape for the looney bin? sources are unclear on that one, lol, but she was no child, and apparently was sporting around on ice and snow in what appeared to be 5 inch heels. CRAZY? oh yes, definitely insane, lol.
Where’s the hot chocolate when you need it:) Video borrowed from channel 5 news, is posted below, tee hee………this probobly won’t be seen again, not until spring:)
Have a great day pole friends, and remember, hell, ya only live once, don’t grow up too fast!!!! xoxo
CRAZA MAMA HIT THE PARK, BRAVING THE COLDEST DAY OF THE YEAR!!
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Hey everybody!!
Sorry long time no hear, just alot of madness going on around me. Worried about my mom, having an angiogram today, she spoke only quickly, but said something rather shocking and alarming, which I can find ZERO info. about online, nor getting answers from her, that she is missing 1 or more, (I thought she used the word arteries, but I won’t know more until after the test and she gets some answers to me), in and of itself, a miracle she trusted me with this info, she likes to keep secrets, but it would have been nice to talk more then a few seconds about a medical ordeal like this. *sigh*, so naturally I’m worried. Doesn’t sound very pretty at all, but I’m HOPING it’s something that isn’t as it sounds, HORRENDOUS, and turns out to be nothin major. Between that and my dad last week telling me, he feels the impending doom of a massive heart attack (He has 4 brothers, all of which have had heart attacks by, or around, his age, and open heart surgeries), I understand SOME fear, but he isn’t them, and is doing all he can, to take care of himself, yadda yadda, but when I try and offer support, I’m cut down. He’s just acting like next it’s his turn and he could be at death’s door, so it’s real nice to have your parents like this, and worrying about your hubby’s health, and all, it’s rough. It was definite time to grab the pole for some quick therapy. Best anti-depressant there is.
On top of it all, I must admit I have been secretly worrying about my own health to. Ever since my mom told me about something she saw on the news, how prior head trauma (concussions), can cause future problems like dementia and early Alzheimer’s, which is NOT something someone like me wanted to hear, I’ve been knocked out cold several times in accidents (non-pole related), along with a couple less serious blows, that were possibly concussions, I’ll never know, but that and also, recently hearing that from my Dr. alarmed me, having it confirmed by a news special as if these are sort of ‘new’ findings, and this is what’s inevitable for me, or so it FEELS like, when you have had my unlucky life in that dept, I mean it shakes you to the core, the mere thought of that happening to me, is REALLY stuck inside my brain.
I’ve always been a bit of a hypochondriac, admittedly, but this is one time, noone is talking me down and sayin, ’Nah, only in worse cases, like boxers and stuff, with like a ton of knock outs…you’ll be just fine’ or that means only like 1% of the people who have had this kind of history, it WON’T happen to you, chances are so so so so very slim on that, but can’t find that written anywhere or spoken either, by anyone I talk to, how am I supposed to feel? *Sigh*, I always thought I was just insanely lucky to be here w/o any horrible after effects, that someone has definately been looking out for me, and now i gotto be freaked out about what MAY happen down the road because of it?
I gotto be sooo careful, now more then ever, especially in a risky sport as this is, but thank God for it, cause it is the way to get my thoughts off of myself, and onto something much more happy and positive. Saftey is most important, especially to anyone who has been in my shoes, take heart in my story PLEASE! Any prayers you all could send to my family right now, I’d just REALLY appreciate it.
I know we’ll survive as we always do, gotto try and be +++, and strong, I’ve often wondered where the human breaking point on strength truly is, surely there must be one, but i should have reached mine sooo long ago, it isn’t even funny, yet here I stand, and sit, and pole, and type, and walk, and so, you truly can handle much more, then you ever imagined, take heart in that, those also who have been, or currently going through, rough times in your life. Don’t turn to the bottle, or pills, or anything damaging to you as a person, turn to your pole, it’s better then anything else you will ever find, and if YOU… (anyone of you) out there, ever need someone to trust, and talk to…I’m here for you, just as you all are for me:) . OH, the phone just rang…oops, had mom’s ring tone, but it’s only at&t, hey…I paid my bill, WTH, do you all want? lol.
ANYHOW on a brighter note. Today, I finally got my spinning superman, 1 move I found to look so simple, but turn out to be the most tricky of all, extremely surprisingly. Now that we are off the topic of grimness, and onto more positive things, let’s talk a bit about pole moves. Hmm…let’s see, I’m gonna ask myself questions and answer them, in case any newbies wanna compare their own answers, to my own, NOW & IN THE FUTURE.
What was the biggest nemesis I had early on, when I first started at the pole? Definitely the superman, but it became one of the simplest advanced moves to be done repeatedly, w/o incident, FOR ME anyhow, and so looking back hard to admit that was like THE impossible move to me, way back when, when watching others do it. Funny how that happens huh?
What was the most impossible move, even many months in? The damn knee hold. it’s a matrix kind of move, that just looks like it defies all gravity, but somehow is humanly possible. I just hate it cause I always feel it on my upper shin bone, no matter what, that sweet spot disappears, I guess I just don’t do it enough, but to me, its the MOST painful move, so who amongst us doesn’t avoid what hurts the most?What move gave me the hardest time learning? Cause of extreme ‘at first pain’, which I hope doesn’t happen to any of you all, cause everyone is very different… the damn shoulder mount. lol. I actually gave it up, it was soo painful on the side of my neck, it looked as if I was strangled or somethin for awhile there, and I am good with pain. I let it go for awhile and I’m not one for giving up without success, but even when I had gotten up and then down, it was a painful process I hated repeating, and just couldn’t imagine it ever feeling ‘normal’, and not giving me that sore collar bone and neck. Between you gals and me, I actually had tried cutting up maxi pads, thick ones to, and taping them directly to my shoulder for some comfort from the impact of the pole, but even that offered no relief. I don’t wanna scare anyone who hasn’t gone there yet on this move, it was just my personal story for whatever reason, but I will encourage by saying 2,000%, I PROMISE you, if you do feel the discomfort of the S.M maneuver, it will be short lived, and you WILL be able to do it countless times (EVENTUALLY) and without a pinch, or a burn, nothing, nada, zero, zip, so hang in there, never give up, but IF your not really ready for any particular move yet, I urge you to slow down, and take your time, the pole will always be there. Be kind to your body:) YOU ONLY GET 1!
What is my favorite pole move? Hmmmm…geez, I love so many of them, that’s a toughie, I have not thought about until this very second….I’d have to say it’s between the ‘Marley’, named by my good friend, miss boomloulou, that one hurt a bit at first, but became harmless through time as well, I love several spins, but my other favorite TRICK would be the extended butterfly. I think it’s really beautifully when it’s put to some slow music, and extended out so perfectly, it just can look really gorgeous. I love how the knee hold looks as well, I just have a personal HATE for it. I hope like the shoulder mount, that might change with time as well.
Whelp, I think this post was long enough for today, I’ll be back shortly, and I love you all for reading, and for caring. Your the best…I truly needed that vent:) happy poling my friends!!! XOXO
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Hey everyone,
Welp off the topic of pole dancing, i took a trip to chuckecheese yesterday..OMG shame shame on this man, he left his lil newborn child, in an icy cold car for over 45 minutes- 1 hr… before SOMEONE, thank GOD, idk whom it was, but someone leaked the info, and got the police to come, and did they put him under arrest?? NO, they talked for a few minutes, and just LEFT, and this guy had the bowling balls to stick around, taking in the small child carrier, and proceeded to play at chuckeecheese as if nothing had happened. sorry i felt the need to vent my anger via video about it last night, lol, for those who wanna watch you can, but nothing much more then what i just explained. what is the world coming to, parents who don’t care about their children, who get away with it to boot…i was certain this guy would be dragged out in cuffs, perhaps a fellow officer? hmmm, gotto wonder, cause i just read a story about the same thing happening with a 4 yr old girl and daddy got arrested, and also caught in the bed of a 13 yr old girl. double shame on you. ughh just craziness in the world.ANYHOW, i hope everyone is well. Lately i’ve been turning into a nocturnal pole dancer, lol. i used to get up round 5 am, and get everything done before anyone woke, start out the day with a nice workout, and i notice for some reason, i haven’t figured it out yet, i’ve been staying up later, doing pole dancing at night, when everyone is asleep, and sleepin a hair later. can’t tell ya which is better, but i think i got a wee bit more energy in the mornings. a day in the life of a shelly is hard work, lol. but seriously, just noticed this change the past week. makes me wonder what time of day do you guys pole? morning, afternoons, evenings? heck if i were single, i’d probobly be stuck like glue to the darned thing. pulled muscles and bruises for sure? a kick butt body…for certain. i’d live forever, lol. pole dancing will probobly be the only hobby you’ll find in life, besides maybe sex, if your lucky, hehe, that you will definitely miss after a day or two of nothingness. seriously, i do miss my pole if a day or two goes by w/o dancing on it, but there is honestly never a day, maybe 1 in all my time doing this amazing activity, that i didn’t at least grab onto it for 1 lil swing or something, even if it were for 10 seconds. it’s like a ‘fix’ you just gotta have, hard to keep your hands off of it. boy guys are gonna be very jealous of these things, if all us gals feel the same way!welp time to brave the day. going to see ‘hotel for dogs’ later on. yes this is what my life has become, but hey..wouldn’t have it any other way, i’ll watch somethin more my speed tonight. much love to you my pole dancing pals!xoxo, ShellPS- VIDEO BELOW
